So I’ve been writing in this xanga thing for almost 2 1/2 yrs, but the truth is I actually keep a hand written journal too… consistently for 8 years now, trying to write twice, at least once a week. And a few days ago I finished another one. Another couple more hundred pages filled with documentation of the “Aw Yes!”s and “Aw crap”s in my life, far more personal and in depth than anything I’d be comfortable writing here.
Last entry of “Volume 8”
Sure, make fun of me, call it a “diary” whatever. But I find something very satisfying and meaningful from recording my thoughts and “freezing” them on paper, the good and bad. I like writing by hand because I enjoy the organic, analog feel I get from it (I mean, this is the same way ppl hundreds, thousands of yrs ago did it. There were no eprops or :import picture: ). Even more so I feel like there’s no way to deny that it’s me writing. What I mean by that is…to those that have kept a xanga, or journal for many years…have you ever read something from waaayyy back and thought “dang, this doesn’t even sound like me, or I can’t believe I wrote this.” Well, when I write by hand, I know for a fact, that I sat down somewhere, took out a pen, and put it down. It was Philip, at some age and place. dang, no idea if that made sense, but it makes sense to me…
If you made it into one of these pages somehow, somewhere… Congrats, you’re immortalized in these journals. I’ll be 80 someday (hopefully) and read back and still remember what Sally did to me sophomore year of high school. I think that’s pretty cool/funny.
Yup, 1995. Thanks to my childhood friend Sam Chieh for getting me that first one. That four year break was due to it sitting under my mattress because I got lazy then forgot about it. Until March 2000, when I decided I’d start again. I was 15. Geez that was a long time ago.
Well, I didn’t wanna write a lot today, FAIL, but I could seriously talk on and on about these books and what they mean to me. I won’t though. Instead, I’ll leave with a few pictures I took over the time span of this most recent journal. “A picture is worth a thousand words” right? So I let these sum it up..