There is definitely a difference.
Growing up means that you are gaining a better understanding of the world you live in, your relationships, your goals and how to affect them.
Growing old means that things are happening to you and your true desires remain unexplored.
Growing up means you accept and are open to the changes that we ALL eventually go through at some point and adapting to them gracefully, yet not always willingly.
Growing old means you reject or resist the way the world and you inevitably change.
Growing up means reflecting on yourself critically, in efforts to improve and continually evolve your abilities to learn, relate with others, and feel.
Growing old means…dude you just don’t get it.
A part of me is growing old. I can’t deny. I think at some point we all reach the threshold of how “hip wit it” and open-minded one can be (but I don’t think that comes until wayyyy later). I’m not quite there yet… but my rising number of age, my ability to recognize more songs on the “old school” radio station, and my weaker back are definitely telling me that yes, I’m growing older.
for the first time, I think I’m also growing up. And not like the “growing up” I superficially said when I moved to college and thought I was sooo mature.
2009 was special. It was definitely better than 2008, and far better than 2007. And when I look back to think, why… it’s because, I think I’m growing up.
I won’t go into the personal details of what that specifically points to, but let’s just say… I’m not so afraid anymore, I feel like I’m a little more in control, I’m finding joy more often, and the relationships with people close to me are feeling stronger and deeper.
So when I’m with friends and we joke how we’re getting older and older, I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing. When we meet younger ppl in high school or college and they tease us about being “old”, I don’t feel embarrassed. I feel like it’s better up here, and it’s going to get even better…because we are progressing in life. Progress is what makes life exciting. (As much as I loved my hs and college yrs, I would not want to be a freshmen all my life)
I’m 25. Smack dab in the middle of my twenties. Most of us in this decade are lost and trying to find out what we want or can do with our lives. I’m definitely still part of that in may ways. I’m far from being an adult with a firm grasp on my life, but like I said before, I’m a little less scared of the future than I was before.
(geez I hope I don’t eat these words in a few yrs, jinxing myself right there)
And all this is directly affected by the wonderful people in my life who I must thank this year as I have done each New Years Eve in the past. Without them playing specific roles in my life the past 12 months, I would be writing a much different, more emo, entry.
Thank you to all the fans and supporters out there who have ever watched, passed on, purchased, read anything related to Wong Fu. We are fully aware that we’re nothing without you, and can only hope to keep you around =P. Thank you to our friends around the country who have cared and believed in us enough to organize a tour event, you don’t realize how much it means to us. Thank you Regina, Mary, Philip for being honorary interns and PAs. Thank you Tom for always making us feel like we’re VIP even though you have a million friends. Thank you Diana and FM for being rockstars and setting an example of hard work and dedication paying off. Thank you MamaD and 4C girls for driving up and down CA for us. Thank you Chris for your enthusiasm and anxiousness for THE project, we can’t wait to start either.. Thank you David for truly opening up the world of YouTube to us, and for jackhammer. Thank you Christine and Kevin for the laughs and telling us your seeecrets! Thank you Carmen for your courage to pursue a passion. We can sorta relate, hehe. Thank you Eric for always treating us like your best clients. Thank you Mimi for not changing at all over the yrs, in a good way, and for always being down for Cotton Candy. Thank you Susan for your unhealthy competitive nature…it fuels me. We miss you down there. Thank you Jesse for going to Taiwan, awesome to see you going for it! Thank you Henry for your business analytical gibberish and believing so much in our company. Your turn next. Thank you Allen for all the trips back to LA. LIVE will be waiting for you next time. Thank you Tim for not being too old for sleepovers, and always asking the right questions. Thank you Jeh for your strength and perseverance, no one can really understand what you go through, and I really respect you for that. Thank you Ben for willingly joining our family, it’s infinitely better with you, than without. Thank you Wes and Ted, over and over again…it’s the same thing, do I even need to say it anymore? You already know. Thank you Sharon for your patience and understanding. I know I don’t make it easy, but that’s what makes you awesome and special and what I believe will make us stronger in the future.
I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions, I make End of the Year Conclusions.
2009 I feel was the start of something truly grand. I hate having high expectations, but I feel like 2010 is screaming for it. Here’s to growing UP even more in the coming year. Last year I closed saying “onward”. This yr…